Just checking in

I don't have very long to write this post unfortunately, but I just feel moved to write it and I feel the need to update you. My retreat went very well and I realized that I was rushing the call a bit; I was trying to make it in my time instead of God's time. Due to this I have really focused on letting go this summer and letting God have some control in my life, which has always been a struggle for me. I have been thinking about the priesthood a lot, however. The decision will come soon, I am a senior this upcomming year and after this year I will have to decide if I am going to go on to graduate school or the seminary. Honestly, some of the decision may be made by if I get into graduate school or not, but I figure that that is a place where God can guide me. I have the grades and test scores to get into most of the schools I plan on applying to, but that doesn't mean that I will. If I don't get into graduate school, I will probably take it as a sign that it is not the place where I am meant to be because I have done everything I was supossed to do to get in. If I do get in, I will just have to look at my options and see what feels right, you know?

I wish there was an easier way to come up with a decision on this issue, and I wish I had a better way of figuring this out (because mine seems like it is determined by chance almost) but I guess I just have to trust in God and trust that He will lead me.

Anyways, this is not my finest post by any stretch but I wanted to let you all know that I am doing well and still thinking about the vocation. I just have been very busy and forgot about my blog for a while! I will try to post more thoughts soon!