Confused

Here I sit watching CBS's documentary on Pope John Paul II's life and also looking through some pictures that a friend who recently entered the seminary. Actually, I have several friends whom recently entered the seminary which definately has me thinking. I look at them in admiration knowing well the choice that they are making and the sacrificies they are making.

It isn't that I am necessarily scared to make this step, I don't think that is it, but the problem is that I have such conflicted feelings. At times like now I feel so ready and so strongly becoming a priest, and I want it so badly. However, there are other times when I feel so strongly and so ready to become a psychologist and to one day have a family. It isn't that I am afraid because I would love to know what I should do either way. My problem is that I feel both so strongly and clearly and that it is hard to know what I should do.

Please pray for clarity and for me to have patience because I want to make a jump so badly when I suppose that perhaps God is just telling me I must be patient. I am confused, but if there is one thing I know it is that I have to put this in God's hands and know that he will guide me, and in that I trust. It is just so hard to sit on these feelings and let God.